i only hear what i want

photo by: jason lazarus

not exactly sure what the stars say about my current station, but from what i glean my recent friend pool is stuck in revolving door mode. not to say i am loosing friends emotionally, more so geographically. one to the west, one soon to the east, and i stay firmly in the middle. with my loses i've also had some gains which is exciting, but also leaves me a bit anxious. establishing trust with a new pal is something that takes time and intuition. my inherent nature is to divulge and expound at length about my goings on, but then i realize that this person is new to my sphere and i don't want to scare him or her off. my tendency (as i often say) is to tell everyone down to the lady at stanley's produce mart what my business is, "and why for the love of god did he wink at me? what does it all meaaaaan???!". unbiased and unabashed are my two favorite forms of advice. perhaps that's why my solicitation bears no filter as to whom the receiver is at times.

is privacy something you develop or innately possess?

when the dream came, i held my breath

finally over my cold. minor as it was, my lack of olfactory stimuli leaves me feeling as if one hand is tightly tied behind my back. smell after all is the strongest of them all.

fondest memories from my break:
bax and sadie playing french bingo- "le moto!!!"
waking up in brooklyn with snow outside the window and music for airports lulling me back to sleep...
a metric ton of glitter in accompaniment with the phosphorescent fellas, b.g., hearts revolution at the stroke of midnight, and the k&m FTW- NYE 2009!!

just try not get all mushy listening to this:
swedes do it better

property of complacancy

of the chaos that is my family during the holidays, you realize that your/my family is much like most. scattered, heated, but intrinsically humble and loving. awkward at its best and consistently self conscience much like high school or summer camp. all in all, caring and wholeheartedly earnest and determined.

sober and calm. i wouldn't have it any other way. big barrels of laughing and doubled over with antidotes.

in my absence

i've found that the word 'puss' in swedish is actually very sweet:
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1139797

the french, play head games like the rest of us:
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0814786

i need these bands cooing in my ears

&

"with every good-bye you learn."

tis tru

tuscadero "holidays r hell"

why i love the silver fox: autumn in atlanta

"I seem to be enjoying it too much - for example - on my way here, I stopped by the wondrous ginko trees at Peachtree Battle and collected 100's of golden leaves for Saralee in Miami. She makes bookmarks for her students because they don't know about leaves changing color in autumn ..."

sunrise/sunset

couldn't help but get a little misty as the song 'stamping ground' came on the ol liondre as i walked into the polling booth yesterday.